22 January 2009 (Thursday) - 23rd January 2009 (Friday)

Looking for a place to enjoy your sisha? Well we found one at Jesselton Point, you can find sisha at Edgar's, Cocoon, etc.. But we prefer more at Jesselton Point at the Don's Point. When I went to the washroom and I passed by a big rubbish bin, it caught my attention and so I took a picture of MR BIN I'm like ASTAGA, so obvious that's a rubbish bin and yet they named it MR BIN luckily not MR BEAN The next day went out for Lunch with Kev, Anne & Jenie. Then, after lunch guess what.. Pity anne, the parking attendant ask her to pay RM10 instead of RM3 because of she parked her car at 'reserved' parking.

20th January 2009 (Tuesday)

My Angels having their lunch..nyum nyum..

As I walk.. As I hold on.. Tried to be strong tried to move on.. Tried to put the smile on my face.. and tried to hide the feelings I had.. There's something is missing There's something is not there I tried to find out But I don't how I don't know where Completely empty Completely lost I'm in my own world Which I always had As the stars always shine in the sky As sun always brighten up your days.. I always wanted to be.. Someone who can always bring the smile into every one's faces Don't cry but smile Don't forget but always remember 'Comostat' This is Me.. I will always be.. In your heart when you needed me..

I'm not here anymore

I'm scared..I'm really scared...how if one day..I have to go with unfinished business ni.. how ah.. it's very hard for me to pretend that I'm ok and I'm strong which is I'm not.. Rasa mcm mo nangis ja terus.. But will that make me healthier.. How if this sickness that I have is not just a normal sickness.. God give me strength and please keep me away from a sickness which is I cant bear.. I really don't know how long can I hold on.. But I'm thankful to have my family and friends who always be there for me.. who at least make me forget about the pain that I had inside..who at least give me the strength when I was weak.. God..Thank You for all the blessings that You gave me..

Days by days past by.. The lump inside my neck grows bigger and bigger.. I felt that it's very hard for me to breath.. the pain make me feels like I want to take a knife and just stab inside my neck ni..sot betul o0 kan.. Later when I go home.. I'll try to take some pain killer..who knows that will slow down the pain that I'm having now.. Actually.. I keep on telling myself that I'm goin to be ok.. I am.. I am.. I know that I am.. I'll update soon after I consult with my specialist what is the update of my lumps.. ;) na.. I think I'm goin to be fine.. Gwen you are one of the strongest gurl on earth.. Really? Yes you are.. ;) Yes I know I am.. and I know I will always be.. Here's one of the poem that I saw in Anitha Murthy's blog that I want to share with all of you:

I'm not here anymore

A curious feeling, an absolute lethargy has crept over me... Don’t knock on the door, don’t ring the bell Don’t wait for my voice, that you know so well. For I’m taking a trip to an unknown place It’s the first time I’ve been, here in inner space. Just cannot explain this feeling I feel I wish I knew what was the real deal. I’m doing the things I’ve always done I know all will be fine in the long run. It’s not that I’m sad, or even depressed It’s not that I’m acting like one possessed. It’s not that I’m mad, or even confused And no, this is not keeping me amused. Floating like a cloud riding on the wind I’m feeling completely spaced out within. Just watching Life go meandering by I wanna lie down and just look at the sky. I don’t want to speak, I don’t want to write I don’t want to smile, I don’t want to fight I don’t want to eat , I don’t want to breathe I just wanna let go, I just wanna be No strings attached, no duty calls Breaking down all my weary walls Just flying out to the deep blue sea Spirit's footloose, and fancy free. So if you ring the bell, or knock on the door Don’t wonder, coz I’m not here anymore. I hope I’ll touch down on terra firma real soon Till then, think of me when you look at the moon. Floating like a cloud riding on the wind I’m feeling completely spaced out within. Just watching Life go meandering by I wanna lie down and just look at the sky.

Food Testing @}-+-- California Grill --+-{@

14th January 2009

Went for food testing at California Grill in 1Borneo with Anne & Mr Lee. A place that you want to be to wind down with a buddy over a good meal, or have a hearty affair with the whole family. What is very special about their food is, thanks to their chef, Chef Johan who brings Western Cuisine with a little twist of Asian Influence.

A place with a friendly environment-giving a friendly services hope not because of its pre-opening. ;) Food is quite ok... Love the Pizza, Curry Oyster, & Potato Salad. Overall I give 7/10 ;) Other COmment: ~> the service was good (i hope its not only bcoz it is the pre-opening impression) ~> the food was OK ~> i was a lil dissapointed wth d mushroom soup actually - i feel like sumthing is 'missing' in d ingredient So... If you feel like goin.. ;) Just call for reservation or just walk in to California Grill.. I hope you'll enjoy your meal and have a wonderful time there.. Ciao~

CALIFORNIA GRILL G-807, Ground Floor, 1 Borneo Hypermall, Jalan Sulaman, 88100 Kota Kinabalu, Sabah Tel: 088 447041 / 012 6860780 www.californiagrill.com.my

I Miss Them..

I miss them... I miss my mom.. I miss her so much.. How I wish that I can always spend time with her.. I miss her smell.. I miss her voice.. I miss her smile.. I miss her joke.. I miss every details about her.. Sometimes when I'm down or when I'm sick.. How I wish that I can just hug her and cry in her arms.. I can't imagine if one day she's not around anymore.. She taught me a lot of things.. She's my inspiration.. She's my Idol.. No matter how hard her life is.. She always shows that She's strong.. She always have her own way out.. I wonder how did she do that.. Mom you're incredible.. I miss my lil sis.. She's very funny.. and TALENTED.. Can you imagine.. She can hum when she's just few months old (is that the correct phrase that I'm using??) She always cheer us up.. FYI for me She's very cute.. ;) She always wanted to do things her own way (sounds like me ;p) I hope as she grow.. She'll be the most incredible, successful and nicest person on earth.. I miss my brother.. He's in KL now.. I still remember how we always fight.. We always argue.. But deep inside my heart I love him and I know he felt the same way too.. I hope he can do well in his studies.. God.. I really miss them.. I really do.. ;( I hope there will be one day that all of us can be together.. spend our precious time together.. share our laughter... share our sadness..

I Believe In Angel

I believe in Angel.. I really do.. Why?? Do we actually need to have an answer for that ;) Well.. whatever it is.. I do have answer for that Q.. I believe in angel.. I believe that all the people around me is an angel.. Why? Cause they are the only person who will always guide us.. teach us.. stand guard for us.. and even.. always be there for us.. An angel don't have to be someone with wings aite... ;) All this angels around me always inspires me.. They always help me... They always concern about me.. I started to notice this angels around me since I'm 16.. God gave me the most precious gift of all.. At times that I'm really down and have no strength to move on.. I prayed and ask him to take me away... But He insists.. He wanted me to see His beautiful creations.. So He send me His Angels.. To give me strength.. to show me the meaning of love..friendship & family.. I'm so grateful to have all this Angels around me.. As life goes on.. I never look back and think 'why all this bad things always happen to me' ... But I'll look back and say 'Thank you Lord for all those wonderful memories and exciting experience that you gave me' People might see that I'm like an angel.. always bring smiles to their face.. but deep inside me.. I'm crying... not just for me.. tears of joy.. tears of sadness.. I pray for those who almost give up in their lives.. I pray so that they know and notice their Angels around them.. Just standing or sitting beside them.. It's very funny.. only during hard times like when you're broke, you're sick, you're dying etc... Then you'll notice which is your angel.. Coming to 23 this year.. But I don't have to be 40 or 50 to see how cruel life is.. I don't care if I have some Bad Angels.. Cause I know.. I have other Good Angels protecting me... Every day I pray and thank God for all his blessings.. I prayed that if one day I'm not able to see His wonderful creations.. My angels which is His.. will be with other people who need them most..