Never Try To Forget.. Never Try To Remember..

Some may say that a dream is just a dream.. But not for me.. Each dreams has it own meaning.. I had dream last night.. a dream that made keep on thinking about it.. why.. there is something I know.. It must be something.. I don't think that my dreams is as simple as that.. As I talked with a friend this morning, I then remember what I always tell myself and my friends, when you deal with pain, hurt, disappointment or whatever it is that makes you try to forget. Don't. Don't try to forget what had happen, the more you try the more you will remember. Certain cases, when you don't try to remember does not mean that you will forget. I know this will be a bit confusing. We might always say, 'I am not trying to forget I am just filling my time with some activities which I don't have the chance to do before' Stop and try to think back. Are you sure? Are you really sure that you are not trying at all? While I'm trying to put some words in my blog, something cross inside my head and my heart tells me to write it in... 


My dear, I have been waiting so long to tell you that how I miss you so much. I know that you know I will always be in your heart and you in mine. Do you still remember your promises? I know that you are not the person who will forget. I am thankful to have you by my side. You always try to be there for me. I am thankful and blessed for every minutes and seconds in my life when you are with me. Well all I can say is I AM LUCKY TO HAVE YOU ;) There is a lot for me to say. But I really don't know how to put it into words. It is been a while we don't see each other face to face, joke around as we used to. I really miss those days. Remember how we always tease each other.. hurm those were the days. But hey, I am not around does not means that I don't love you. I do!! I really do love you more than word can say!!!!! Well I know you do know that. Please forgive me for what I did. Please forgive me cause I can't be there when you need me. But please keep your promises. I will always love you. Always do. As the stars will always shine in the sky, it is like my love will always be with you In another few years you might not see the stars in the sky as clear as you may see it now..as you will always know that eventou you can't see it but you know the stars is always there.. It is just like me.. You might not see me, but I am always be in your heart and your memories. Till then. Please do take care of yourself. Please don't change yourself to someone I don't know.. Have a wonderful life ahead.. I love you.. 


I really don't know why and where this note come from.. But well I guess no harm putting it anyway.. I need to get back to work. Will continue this topic some other time. I hope..

InCest - Josef Fritzl - Motives of Keeping His Daughter As A Sex Slave

I found this in in the net. A confession from Josef Frtzl: Josef Fritzl has broken his silence about why he kept his daughter as a sex slave in a dungeon for 24 years.

Mr Fritzl, who fathered seven children by his daughter after abusing her in the cellar of his house in eastern Austria, claimed that he was obsessed with a desire to have a family with her because she was a “great housewife and a mother”.

The retired electrical engineer, who is currently on remand facing a range of possible charges including manslaughter and rape, also revealed that he projected on to Elisabeth, now 42, the incestuous desires he had for his own mother.

“I knew that Elisabeth did not want the things I did to her. I knew that I was hurting her," Mr Fritzl said in notes given by his lawyer, Rudolf Mayer, to an Austrian magazine.

“But the urge to finally be able to taste the forbidden fruit was too strong. It was like an addiction.”

Mr Fritzl also admitted he did not use contraception while sexually abusing his daughter and said that he planned to have a “proper family” with her.

“In reality I wanted to have children with her. I was looking forward to the offspring. It was a beautiful idea for me — to have a proper family, also down in the cellar, with a good wife and a couple of children.

“I always wanted to have many children. Not children that would have to, like I had, grow up alone but children that would always have someone to play with. I had a dream about a large family ever since I was a little boy.”

He also confessed to having lured his daughter to the underground dungeon he secretly constructed in the cellar of his home in Amstetten and admitted that he designed and equipped the underground chamber solely for that purpose – claiming to have wanted to protect his daughter from “bad people”.

But he denied having abused Elisabeth sexually at the age of 11 – as she reportedly told police – claiming that he was not a man “that would molest children”.

“Ever since she entered puberty she did not adhere to rules anymore. She would spend whole nights in dingy bars, drinking alcohol and smoking. I only tried to pull her out of that misery," he said.

“I got her a job as a waitress but she would not go to work for days. She even escaped twice and hung out with bad people during this time and they were not good company for her. I would bring her back home each time but she would try to escape again.

“That is why I had to do something. I had to create a place where I could keep Elisabeth, by force if necessary, away from the outside world.”

According to Mr Fritzl, he kept his daughter hostage for several months without sexually assaulting her but gradually started to “lose control” and went to the cellar one night to rape her.

“The urge to have sex with Elisabeth was getting stronger and stronger. It was a vicious circle, a circle from which there was no exit — not only for Elisabeth but also for myself.

“With every passing week in which I kept my daughter captive my situation was getting crazier. I really was thinking about whether I should let her go or not. But I was not able to make that decision, although — or maybe exactly because of that — I knew that with every passing day what I had done would be more severely judged.

“But I was afraid of being arrested and of having my family and everyone out there find out about my crime — and so I postponed my decision again and again. Until one day it was really too late to free Elisabeth and take her upstairs.”

Fritzl also revealed that he had incestuous desires for his mother, Maria, since early childhood but managed to suppress them. His mother raised him on her own and had to take several jobs in order to support them in the years after the Second World War after she separated from her husband, who, according to Fritzl, “was a no-good scoundrel who was cheating on her".

“She was as strict as it was necessary. She was the best woman in the world. And I was her husband in some way. She was the boss at home but I was the only man in the house.

“But I was strong, almost as strong as she was, and I have succeeded in suppressing my desires.”

Post credit to TIMESONLIE

InCest

I was browsing in the net looking for Joseph Fritze updated case - a father who rapped his daughter and have 7 children with her (3 daughters + 4 sons (one deceased). I was shocked to see another post 'Sex with mum soon to be legal in Romania?' My goodness.. what happen to this world?? Under this topic there is a reply from R***** saying that 'Finally I can express what I've been feeling for 25 years' does this mean this guy have this sexual attraction towards his own mother? I mean, Hello!! A mother is a person who carries you in her for nine months, and breast feed you, take care of you, change your diapers.. How can he can have that kind of feeling?? Who should be blame on this?? As I mentioned earlier about Joseph Fritze (age 73). I can't imagine if I have a father like him, and I thank God that I don't, but I felt pitty for her daughter (Elisabeth - age 44). This guy, he should be prisson in Hell for eternal!! A Father should have protect his children, but not 'eat up' his kids!! It is a horrific to story to hear a Monster Josef Fritzl who plead guilty for raping her own daughter. I felt the pain when his daughter describe the incest rape, imprisonment and torment she suffered at the hands of her own father. Imagine her father lock her in a cellar (Austria - just beneath their home) for 24 terrible years and being regulary sexually abused and ending up pregnant by him SEVEN times. You may see this Monster's face as pic below;

Look at him. Can you imagine what he did to his daughter?? Now, what should the children call Elisabeth's mother? grandmother? auntie? what will happen to the other 6 children?? Latest update that I get is Fritzel was found guilty on all charges - rape, incest, murder and enslavement - and has been sentenced to life imprisonment in a secure psychiatric facility. The life sentence is for the charge of murder by neglect of one of the children who died soon after birth. Apparently he showed no emotion when the verdict was delivered and told the court he accept it and would not appeal. I know that there is out there lots of things like this happen and we do not realize.. Let us together pray for them, may God will always be with them, strengthen them in spirit, and send His angles to help them..

Makan² @ my place before OP (CNY)

I hope it will be the 1st & the last..

06 Feb 2009

ADmitted at DamAi SpeaCialist on the 6th February. Nothing much to tell.. Well I think my pics say it all..

My last yummy dinner (hehe) before fasting... 07 Feb 2009 Ni la time ni... I still can smile kunu padahal in my heart dub dab dub dab..pics wif my caps on hehehe ready mo p OP ady.. yg limpang kunu tu sdh keluar dari operation room..as u can see mc lgi sana sni sambung tube...huhuhu.. mc fresh lgi mcm mana rasa sakit after bius hilang...only God knows what I felt that tym... yg ber'peace' kunu tu after sedar sepenuhnya sdh kunu... 2nd time masuk balik DSC 10 Feb 2009 baru ja kuar 1 hari, the next they rushed to QE pasal sesak nafas..I tot that tym..adui mati la sy ni kali...luckily smpat jga smpai p QE..at that tym..my hands and legs cramp ady n I tot sya jadi cacat ni... Bila sdh calm down sikit..baru transfer p DSC..and guess wht..kena admit lgi and the next day operation lgi for the second tym coz the doc mo remove darah beku. pic atas second tym kena admit and kena OP lagi..yg last pic yg bikin geli tu..tht is the thing that yg dorang remove..Mi Thyroid...eewwwww....