Merrimack River by Mandy Moore

Restless to begin A wave comes crashing in The band on stage is tuning Jacarandas are blooming Your face sketched in the trees Puts my mind at ease Beneath the water frozen The Merrimack River is flowing Thunder rolling over Don't say you're not amazed when you know you are And don't say you're not afraid when you know you are Rows of boys and girls Line up to see the world Candy-coated promise Just out of reach when you want it Give me something sweet Bring me to the brink I'll leave without hesitation To a world without limitation Rock me patient, slowly Don't say you're not amazed when you know you are And don't say you're not afraid when you know you are You know you are A world that moves too fast A mouth of broken glass It may not seem so painful By January, the rain will swallow Change will follow Don't say you're not amazed when you know you are Don't say you're not afraid when you know you are You know you are I know you are

Yayy!!

Yayy!!!! At last!!!!! Yayy!!!!! Finally... I manage to get a job!! Thanks to Johan..if not because of him, dont think I'll get this job (waseh!).. waduh gue sgt teruja dong!! hehehehe.. And again..I cant sleep!! Sei loh.. I hope I wont stay up too late..if not for sure memang mati mengampai la this tmrw..hehehe..any tips for sleeping problem??o0 no.. ~sigh Im so xcited, nervous..and deep down inside a bit worried.. God I hope everything will be fine this time.. Am so tired of changing jobs again and again and again..hmm... Even my aunt and Popo (especially popo) trus ckp 'tu la lepas ni buat keja bgs2 bla bla bla' duh mcm la prev company I tdk keja bgs2..I even smpai office awal o0!! urgh!! Whtever it is..past is past... Byk I learned frm my past.. ;) Now it is a new start.. A new chapter.. I really hope I can do well and everything will be fine.. adoi..takut!! argh!! sot eh..this is wht happen if balik2 u failed in doin smthing tht myb you can do best.. GWEN!!! AJA AJA FIGHTING!!! I hope those jobless people out there..will not stop trying..try..try and try harder.. I dont think that I can stand strong till today if it is not because of my mom, my family and friends, who never fail to be there for me..always.. I appreciate tht so much...Im blessed and glad tht I have them in my life.. ;) Lastly.. Thank you again to mom, my aunt & popo..and my cuzzie Gurl Thank you to my friends: Tay, Chel, Kev, Wan, Pai, Irene, Wendy, Jenie, Anne, Adam and those who I did include in your names..doesnt mean that I forget you ok.. ;) This song I dedicate to all of you..Muah!!

~sigh..

Another sleepless night...hmmm..adoi..2 weeks plus ady masi lgi jobless.. I'm so damn fucking bored staying at home..got nutin to do... btl2 heran mcm mana ada org tahan tdk kerja bertahun2????? Baru 2wks plus 'rest' pun sy rasa naik rasang sdh d rmh..astaga!!!!! I really dunno wht hpn to me..wht hpn ah???? I wonder... Kalo mo ckp pasal luck..slalunya Luck sy ok..(i think).. I always get wht I wnt..tpi skg...huh...mcm susah a bit ady.. My god..everyday..its just the same to me...teda lgi mon,tue,wed etc..siang ka mlm ka...make no dif..everyday I tried to send at least min 2/3 resumes per day..tpi sunyiiiii ja phone sy..hmmm... segala internet, newspaper, jobstreet, jenjobs,etc..py la byk web I tried..and please jgn tnya 'SPA ko ada apply?' YES I DID K!! buduh py SPA, seriously.. bukan sy saturang ja rasa bgtu, I saw in the paper mcm last 2 days, saying tht byk la KONON post yg available by end of this year...ya ya ya ya yea r8 whtever..mcm baru jga few mths ago sy nmpk g2.. pa sbnrnya SPA tgk ah??napa kalo compare..org yg setakat SPM ja can get in to gov sector to compare

wif those who grades wif a diploma / degree... pa exactly yg dorang tgk?? I heard byk ady org merungut ada yg 2 tahun, ada yg 3 tahun ada yg bertahun2 masi lgi nda dpt SPA, kalo mcm tu bgs nda pyh la ada tu web.. knw why?? coz dorang kasi iklan ada vacancy tpi org yg dpt bukan org yg ada o9 isi form pun..padahal org dlm yg tlg ceh! malas sy!ntah la..hmm... btw..tadi p tgk wayang BLOOD:THE LAST VAMPIRE, tot mo p tgk alone, skali tnya my cuzz Gurly mo jga dia ikut..so kami berdua ja p tgk..mcm lama ady teda jln kami dua2 ja..syok jga la jln single mungle g2.. ;) k..back to my comment abt tht movie.. hmm..intro ok..but whn smpai climax scene mcm ada smthing is missing..I dunno wht and mcm mo xplain..tpi ada yg kurang la wif this movie..bt overall sy masi WOW la..coz staring dia perempuan kan hohohohoho..next movie tht I'm looking 4wrd to watch is Transformer, Harry Potter, Drag Me To Hell, 17 Again and Hannah Montana The Movie (aw Hannah I LOVE YOU!!!!) hehehe..

In Loving Memory of CLARENCE LAIYAP GODULI

Today 12.06.2009 is our late brother Clarence Laiyap Goduli's 1st Anniversary.. A death in the family leaves a void that cannot be filled. No one can ever take the place of this individual in the world. We should not try to comfort the family by saying that "it was his time anyway", or, "he was suffering". These may be words of comfort later. However, there must be time to mourn the fact that things will never be the same. One minute he was here and now he is gone. The human mind must be allowed to sit with this reality. Mourning is a necessary part of the human experience. If it is ignored, a general feeling of sadness may pervade the whole family. (Post credit to Family Death Poems from Family Friend Poems) May his soul rest in peace.. To Rachel & family.. I hope you guys will always be strong for each other.. Love you Chel.. Dedicate this vid to Rachel & family